Random Questions and an INTJ's Reflections

  Hello! I have been learning about enneagram and MBTI for nearly 5 years. Even though I can semi-accurately other people and characters I have an issue typing myself. One week I am thinking that one type suits me, next week another. So please help me type myself, please ask me questions to understand me better! Well I essentialy have thoughts and struggles about life, like why we live, what is the meaning when death takes it all. Our ambitions, desires, loves; all of them will burst like small bubes in the sea of time. I also have pessimistic thinking regarding my future and world's future in general. Due to many unknown variables which are impossible to predict, I have an anxiety regarding future. This makes me not want to do anything, just lay in bed sometimes (yeah). In social interaction I can interact with literally all kinds of people %90 of the time. I can be kind and charismatic. Even though I hate them, I can pretend, so my job with them ends faster. I also have machiavel...

  I’m 31 years old, and my girlfriend is 26. We’ve been together for about a year. When we first met, she was very introverted and extremely passive. She still is. At the beginning I didn’t really see it as a problem, because I’m introverted myself, and I thought she just needed time to open up. She is also very attractive. When we met, she told me she had never had a boyfriend before and was still a virgin. I was surprised, but later I started to understand why. She is extremely shy, very closed off, and speaks very little. I still tried to give it time, and it took months before we became intimate. Back then I was patient and thought it would improve over time. Now, after about a year, I feel like I’m starting to see things more clearly, and I’m not sure what to do with this. The main issue is her passivity and lack of emotional expression toward me. In intimacy, I am almost always the one who initiates everything: hugging, kissing, physical touch, and sex. She basically just res...